I have just read a book about a woman who hiked the Pacific Crest
Trail. As she hiked the trail, she reflected deeply on her life. At the end of
it all, she’d gotten really strong and felt transformed. I’ve always been
attracted to stories about people who transform through physical challenge, and
yet, I don’t seem to be able to make any of that happen for myself.
It does not matter what
you set up as the metaphor by which to transform. It makes no difference. It is
that you set one up. It is that you put yourself in a situation of your
choosing that keeps you in relationship with yourself and God. Consciously. If you do not do that, it
will happen to you unconsciously, and when it happens unconsciously, you will
say, “Well, I didn’t choose this. This is just happening to me.” But we really
did choose it. We just want to blame somebody else for our problems and for our
pain.
It has come to me that perhaps the plan for me is just to have a
beautiful marriage.
Well, of course the plan for you is
to have a beautiful marriage! And look at the progress you have made. Your
longing is for union. The longing, the questions that arise—should I do a
vision quest, should I do this, should I do that—they are all ways in which you
are really just saying, I want to be closer to God. And so, pray. When you make
your prayer, say, I feel you within me, I
feel you in my heart, I see with your eyes, I hear with your ears, I speak with
your words, I live with you, you live within me, I live within you. Just go
into your heart so that you summon spirit and go ever deeper. You are pulling
yourself through with your spiritual focus and will continue to do so.
(March 2013)
Maresha's next blog will be published January 6, 2015.
Messages of Light is published by the Sanctuary of Universal Light on Snow Dragon Mountain in Meredith, New Hampshire. www.snowdragonsanctuary.com
Messages of Light is published by the Sanctuary of Universal Light on Snow Dragon Mountain in Meredith, New Hampshire. www.snowdragonsanctuary.com